new things to covet part 1

in auckland for the semipermanent conference and am so bowled over by the energy and straight up niceness of the place...we even got some rain to make us feel well at home...the last few days have officially been a prescription jet lag drift but have managed to not only fall in love with a print but actually buy it from james jean's new show here...

a proper report shall ensue but probably after me and harry's tiki tour embarking from wellington on monday...

im twittering (finally) for the studio here...

my new willow tree...(with heron paul)

i should be happy...

i was thinking about all the things i haven't done this year...and then stumbled accross something i actualy got round to producing. It made me realise that when i apply myself i can actually create something i actually like and that it actually had an effect...the knock-on effect of going out with a writer is the fear that rises up when I have to write...but this was for 2 friends who were getting married so i bit the bullet...

love builds up

the brightest light I ever saw,
burned with me, glowed with me,
stayed with me when i needed it most.

it slept with me, cared for me,
gave me my partner in crime.

lives bound together into a perfect book of adventure,
where the things of dreams became real,
and nothing was mine any more, it was ours.

i jigged like prince, sang with maria,
origami at will, such a thrill,
cauliflower cheese, thank you please,
and hearts had found their place in life.

a gorgeous ache; an ordinary swoon,
I know for sure love is in this room.

sunshine an a rainy day,
and all the things i cannot say,

can now unfold.

Give with me, take with me,
you got the love i need to see me through,
Love me the way that I love you.

right now,
that word we use when what we feel exceeds all other words.

love builds up,
and the shimmer of light became the bright sun,
accomplice to our joy.

wants list...

1/i would like to record brain activity in the hippocampus whilst showing specific images possibly promoting certain emotions, connect it to this and then display them...

this in reference to finding...



which i heard when i was here listening to him and it made me wonder how the timing of something really warps your mind and your opinion of what's good, bad or ugly...you can guess what supermax is to me...

i wish i could go to blackpool mecca...

ode to last year...

today
woke up feeling sick
smoking closed eyes
the crackling of liquids and powders and late night fuckery
another fag
try to scrape the filth out
try
bullet
bacon and a fag
another fag
thinthinthinthin...hahaha
how long till it's late enough
one at lunch
easy
crying at therapy
waiting to feel better
fucking waiting
fucking
something glimmers but it's far too much to ask
excitement
fading

17 years waiting...

i thought id tidy up my desk and stumbled upon a copy of blues and soul from 1992 which had some charts in from my old mate hobbsie...i remember at the time pondering how i could get to hear those 'chestnuts' as he put it to decide what to spend my easily earned cash on...but back then it was hard...5 minutes on you tube and hey presto...something to spend another £100 on...thank god i never throw anything away...it surprises me sometimes that the things that were air to me in my 20's are still the things that keep me smiling today...enjoy.

horse meat glasto...

and the other one...



turn left at the lightning
in the back door
people
heat
mud (my first wellies)
wine in a plastic bottle
old friends
back stage
sofa's
real toilets
hot tent
sausages
cider
wine
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sunshine
blue ridge mountains
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down by the river
oh my god this is really happening
drinking vodka on each other
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horse meat
poppers!!!
gravy and chips
birds nest
charades
tea
c.s.n....for what it's worth
sleep
on it
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"is your head in the same dimension as your body"
get rid of it

i think you get the picture,or maybe not specifically...anyway i'm sure it's not very interesting hearing about my festival experience as it's mostly the same as everyone else's...i think my girlfriend realised that her opinion of me being slightly high maintenance may have disappeared...god bless being wrong...i have a dream...